Long time many thoughts!

WOW.... So much has happened in my life over the last semester of college (4 months). I have learned a lot about others and about myself. I have realized that where God has brought me at this point is just amazing. I am so excited for what He is doing in my life. I am learning that obedience might be hard sometimes but the reward for it is amazing. God is so awesome. He is the best parent you could have. He loves to reward us and bless us with things when we decide to listen and follow what He wants for us. It is not easy for me to submit and follow what He is calling me to in this season of my life. I desire to have someone else in my life to share things with and to start a family but I now know that God has asked me to just be patient and enjoy the time I have to do what He has in store for me. I see what is right in front of me I don't see what is beyond the trial and the difficulties most of the time. So I am trusting that while I walk this journey I see set in front of me that the end result is going to be something more amazing than I could ever imagine. I get so excited thinking that God is going to bless me with a husband that is everything I need for ministry and life and anything else that comes my way. He is going to have the same ministry goals that I do and it is just going to mesh well. :D It is so hard though in the times when I feel lonely and want someone to just cuddle and have close to me. I miss the relationship with another person. But God is teaching me to have that with Him. I am learning and it is getting easier and I know it will just get easier as it goes. I pray that God will sustain me in those hard times and the dark places that I know I am going to run into along this journey. I pray I can hold on to His hand and rely on Him and not go searching in places that I won't find what I am looking for in. Thank you Jesus for being my all in all and more than I could ever imagine.